Thank You Baby

How do I find the words to express the gratitude and love in my heart that you’ve stirred for nearly 14 years? How do I let you know how much you have given to me and to my sweet little family? Do you know you will forever be mama’s baby number one?

I can’t keep from reminiscing today. I think I need to remember all the good things to make losing you okay. Do you remember how small you were? Or how hot the asphalt was on your first walk? I remember how you couldn’t go up or down stairs because they were so much bigger than you. You fit in my hand.

It took some real work wearing down Blake to get you. He may never admit it but he’s never been sorry and he really loved you too. He even had fun playing with you, probably more than you did! And I will always remember the childless years you carried me through. Those were some long and dark times made easier by you. Only those who’ve known this heartache can truly appreciate how much you did, and it makes losing you that much harder.

I remember the ONE and only toy you ever played with. Would that the little alligator could have lasted forever. But then I feel the same way about you.

Or the first time you made the long car drive to Idaho to visit family. You were a real hit!

In your prime you could jump all the way to the top of the recliner where you’d look out the window. You could even make it up on the bed by yourself with some real effort and maybe a little help from a pillow or two.

Oh sweetie, I’m going to miss seeing you sleep soundly curled in a little ball. Not to mention the warm welcome you were always waiting at the door with whenever someone came through it.

And I’m going to miss the pitter patter of those little feet, the snorts in the background and even the snoring. It’s going to be awfully quiet without you.

Shandi, you’ve been the first baby your whole life; you’ll never be displaced. As your first groomer so aptly put it, you never knew you were a dog. You just thought you were a little person with fur. You were hon, you were. From the chocolate you never should have had to the many vacations you went on. I’m going to miss you so much! My master comforter, trusted confidant and most loyal baby. Thank you for all that you’ve given. My heart will forever have a little empty space surrounding the wonderful and warm memories of you. Thank you sweetie for being you, thank you for aging so gracefully, thank you for giving all you had to all of us. We will always love you!

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15 comments on “Thank You Baby

  1. Ahhhh… Holly, I’m sorry! At least you had the holidays with her.

    Yes, it was nice to have one last Christmas with her. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

  2. How sad! :-( I truly feel like pets are part of the family, too. Shandi is an adorable Yorkie and it’s great that you can remember the good times, too.

    Thanks so much, I agree completely.

  3. Don’t all of us who went through the rough fertility years have our first born our fur babies. Our Lickorice is getting old too. I think we are counting down our time with her also. Loved your post.

    Aww thanks, many hugs to you in your journey too!

  4. Oh Holly I am so sorry. (This made me cry…it was so beautiful.)

    What a sweet girl!

    She was a sweet girl – thank you so much!

  5. Holly, I’m so sorry. I understand completely how you feel. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and Blake and I’m sending love from one dog lover who has lost to another.

    Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

    Author unknown…


    Thank you so much, it is wonderful to be surrounded by others who know.

  6. Awww I am so sorry Holly! I often wonder what I will ever do if my Rowdy ever passes. As Sheldon puts it, he is a very spoiled dog who doesn’t know he is a dog. My thoughts are with you!
    Love you!

    Thank you so much.

  7. Oh Holly – this was the tough post you were writing… I’m so sorry. I will be feeling these same things in the near future. My old dog – who was also my first baby – is showing the signs that old dogs show. It is tough to watch them age…

    Beautiful post – beautiful remembrance…

    Boy you can say that again, even when they age gracefully. Thank you so much for your kind words. It’s nice to not feel so alone.

  8. We’re sorry for the loss of Shandi. She was a sweet dog.

    Thank you.

  9. Holly I’m so sorry… sending you ((((((hugs))))))

    I’ll take them – thank you!

  10. SORRY! Losing a pet is very hard. What a cutie she was though. I hope your kids get through it OK.

    Man it’s tough! Thank you for your thoughts.

  11. Oh Holly, I understand how it is to lose a pet. We have had to say goodbye to several over the years. We didn’t realize they were dogs either. There is a great book out there that some dear friends bought when we lost our precious Coco due to old age: Dog Heaven by Cynthia Rylant – it brought much comfort to us. Also, when we buried Coco a beautiful red cardinal appeared over her headstone, now whenever we see a cardinal we say ‘it’s Coco stopping by to say hello. When our guinea pig died a yellow butterfly appeared and now whenever we see a yellow butterfly we think of Leo and say that he is telling us hello. It’s a wonderful comfort for us and reminds us of our beloved pets.

    What a beautiful share, thank you so much!

  12. So sorry you lost your dog. She looks so cute.

    Thank you!

  13. So sorry Holly! She was such a sweetie! What sweet pictures and words-

    Thank you!

  14. That is so sad. I was totally tearing up reading all about her. I’m so sorry.

    I know – me too! Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

  15. Oh Your love for your little one shines. So sorry for your loss.

    Thank you so much.

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