I find myself sitting here listening to the rain fall softly outside. It’s a beautiful time of year – warm enough to leave the windows open day and night. The rain has a cleansing element I truly appreciate. I should be sleeping, that’s what baby is doing and she looks so peaceful. Something about her peaceful sleep and the beauty of this wet morning go hand in hand. It’s giving me a moment to pause and reflect. I need to do that more often.
Jaimee will be 8 weeks old tomorrow. I wish I could explain how those weeks feel both extremely long and short all at the same time. I can tell you at 2:00 a.m. they feel like forever, but when I look back and consider that less than two short months ago she wasn’t even here yet, I’m amazed. Time seems to fluctuate between these two places for me. We had some beautiful family photos taken this month to celebrate Jaimee’s arrival. I wanted everything to be just right and I thought I’d done pretty well, until after the shoot I walked into the bathroom and noticed I’d neglected to finish putting my makeup on. Joke’s on me. *giggle* I will forever look at these photos with the reminder that I forgot the mascara, but I don’t mind. The pictures capture everything I was hoping for.
I wish I had both the time and skill to share the thoughts of my heart. So much has changed, and yet the newness is swallowed up in the reality that these changes are simply built on so many things already established. Life continues, it always has and I find myself wanting to hit the pause button. I want to sit in this moment for longer than time allows. I want to breathe in every good thing in my life, to truly recognize how beautiful life is and how incredibly lucky I am. In a few moments, baby will be awake and the day will be underway with several tasks and chores but right now it’s quiet and peaceful – just like my sweet angel baby. Even the older kids are feeling it as they’ve slept in this morning too. Everything is at peace, so I’m taking a snapshot of sorts to remember this moment.